I seriously can not handle seeing another person announce their pregnancy. I want to cry. I am so frustrated and upset. Why can't it happen for us? I feel like we are being punished.
I have been told my whole life I am so motherly, I will make the perfect Mom. I love children and babies. I am a nanny and I want to be a teacher.
I also get so annoyed because I have had a miscarriage and waited till Bran and I were married to start trying again (first one was an oops). I now think, why did we bother waiting? Would I have had a better chance before? Who knows but it still upsets me. The whole thing.
I have a friend who's younger daughter is the exact age of the baby I would have had if I hadn't miscarried and I just saw a picture of her from Halloween and sometimes it makes me so sad to think that by now I would have had a baby that is almost a year and a half. I can't believe that much time has gone by.
We are going to see them on the 18th and it's bitter sweet seeing her daughter. She is so precious but it makes me realize what I am missing.
Please pray that we get our dream of having a baby. Doctors appt. is on Thurs. If anyone has any suggestions on what I should ask for in order to move things along please email me or comment. Thanks!