This next month is going to be super busy.

I have a research paper, two take home finals, a power point and a final all due by the end of November or early December. This weekend is my cousin's baby shower plus Bran is planning a nice date night for us on Friday and I am planning a surprise camp out on Saturday since he is off on Sunday. I hope I can pull it off!
November 18th and 19th we are going up to Daytona to see our friends, Kat and Jaime. I am super stoked about that. Kat has been one of my best friends for 7 years now. We met when we worked at Olive Garden and that's where she met her husband Jaime also. We instantly clicked because we were both nannies as well.
She has two daughters Ashleen and Brielle. Kat got pregnant with Brielle two weeks after I became pregnant and I was so excited we would be having babies together. I literally was screaming and jumping up and down when I found out. It makes me sad to think we will never have that moment back. I wish we had little babies the same age, being best friends like us. I can not even explain the excitement I had about that whole thing. I remember us both saying they have to be girls or one has to be a boy and the other a girl so they can get married one day lol. If they were girls my daughters name would be Kathryn and hers Brielle so it would be similar to us as well. Not even planned but it was perfect till a week later when I was going in for my ultrasound and she was on the phone with me and we were talking about baby names and I went in and found out the baby's heart was basically non-existant. I called Kat and was devastated. She said try to have hope the baby's heart will be faster next time but I knew my baby was gone. It was so hard knowing she was pregnant and would have a baby that would be the age as mine but mine never made it.
I actually saw her the day after my D&C (she lives 3.5 hours away from me now) and I was sad for myself but so happy for her. She and her husband are amazing parents to their older daughter. I just wish that moment could happen again and we would actually have babies together but they are now done having children so I will never have that moment back. I feel like she would have been the perfect person to get pregnant with too because that was what our bond always was, children. We both loved kids. We both were nannies and loved everything baby, especially baby girl stuff.
Anyway I completely went off topic. Bran and I are contemplating moving up to Daytona and so we will go look around and see how it is. I would love to be closer to Kat and Jaime and get out of South Florida but I would miss my family so we will see. Its not terribly far and I have lived that far away from them before but if we do have a baby that would be hard to take that away from them.