Perfectly Imperfect Mom

This past week has been so hectic. My classes started back up and I go Tuesday, Thursday and Friday then babysit Monday from 8am to 6pm and Wednesday from 8am to 6pm then from 7:45 to about 10 or so then Thursday night babysit around the same time except this Thursday it was 7:15 to about 11:45. Well by Thursday night I was so sick. I thought I had gotten over the cold I had but it seemed to be back in action on Thursday. My friend Ali from class said she had a fever and felt horrible so of course I got whatever she had. I didn't sleep at all Thursday night so I called my doctor and made an appointment and missed my classes on Friday. I was given an antibiotic and told I could take Robutussin for my cough. I went home slept and woke up feeling worse. I had a bit of a fever at 101.1 and just couldn't eat or drink anything. Then by that night forget it, I was a mess. I woke up twice and threw up, which was basically nothing since I had barely eaten or drank anything. I kept getting really hot and achey all over. The next morning my Mom came over and called my doctor and he called back and said go to the ER since you are pregnant. You don't want to risk anything. So we went. They gave me fluids, Tamaflu and some Tylenol with codeine to help with my cough and so I could sleep. I finally felt better after all that and was able to go home. I have felt a lot better since but still have a terrible cough. I feel a bit tired still but at least I am not aching all over, that felt like the worst part in a way.
As for everything else, I am doing ok. I have the 12 week NT scan on Thursday! I am incredibly excited about that. I need to do an 11 week update but I probably won't do a belly pic since I am in bed but I basically look the same.

About 11 weeks

Today I had an appointment and it was with a new doctor. He rocked. I really liked him. He was so sweet and concerned and I think I actually like him more then my previous doctor. Anyway they did an ultrasound since I was in the ER and had a "threatened miscarriage" and everything looks amazing. It was the most incredible thing to see this baby. He was moving his legs and kicking like crazy and waving one hand while the other was behind his head. So cute! So far this has been the best experience during this pregnancy so far!
I also started classes today and so now I am exhausted. I go next week for the 12 week NT scan. I hope that goes well.

So the weather has finally started to get warm again. Today it was about 75 degrees, which in my opinion, is perfect! I went to Target and got a strapless dress. I had bought one last year in November and hadn't had a chance to wear it since it had been cold but I wore it today and it was the perfect thing to wear. Since my jeans are getting tight it is nice to wear a dress. I went ahead and got another one in another color and I might buy one more but this one in black. The ones I have now are purple and turquoise. It will be nice to wear for spring.
We are going to the Keys on Friday for the night. I love going to our house there. It will be nice to get away but now that I am thinking about it traffic might suck since it is a long weekend and we won't be leaving till after I get home from class. I guess we will see what time we actually leave. Either way spending Saturday there will be nice. My friend Lisa is also coming down with her dog so we will probably get together on Sunday and go to the dog park with all the dogs.
Tonight my family is going out to eat for my sister in law's birthday. That should be nice. My sister is really sick so she isn't going. Poor thing! We all got sick this week but she seems to have gotten the worst of it.
Not to much else has been going on. Tuesday morning in my doctor appointment! I am very excited about it. I am a little nervous too since it is a different doctor then I usually see. Hope he is nice!

Ever since my first pregnancy, that sadly ended in a miscarriage, I have known I wanted to do cloth diapers for my baby. I love doing things that are environmentally awesome and good for my future children.  Cloth diapers seemed like a no brainer for me.

Ever since I have been looking at many different brands and types. I am not a huge nut about covers so that wasn't my main concern. I didn't care how cute they were so I focused mainly on what would be the easiest to use for myself and other family members that may watch the baby.

My first thought was Gdiapers. They seemed really easy and a good option for using cloth or disposable inserts in case you are on vacation or having a babysitter. They seemed to be gaining popularity and just over all seemed simple but I am not 100% set on them. I may buy a few for babysitters or back ups.

I went looking further and found Flip diapers. These are so far the top runner. I love that they have a plastic type cover so you basically only need a couple covers and you don't have to throw those in the washer you can wipe them down unless they get very gross from a poopy diaper but as long as they don't get soiled you just change the inserts. I think that seems to be the easiest option yet. I think the pocket ones seem nice but the fact that you have to wash each cover over and over again seems like you would end up doing a lot of laundry which kind of prevents the purpose of saving the environment in my opinion. I would rather buy a bunch of inserts and have maybe 4 to 6 covers (not 100% sure on how many you need at first) and only need to wash the inserts maybe 2 times per week instead of every other day which I have seen people say is a pretty common washing cycle for cloth diapers. I could be wrong on this though so don't hold me to it. I am by no means an expert but so far this seems to be what we will be getting as our main diaper system.

I am not opposed to other diaper systems because I am sure we might want a few cute covers but overall on a daily basis that is not going to be the main concern. If anyone has an tips or uses Flip's and can give me pointers on how many covers to buy that would be awesome.

Oh and on another cool note the covers can be worn from newborn to the end of potty training! Talk about saving money!

I think I have been avoiding my blog because of the ER visit. I am just afraid to really get into this pregnancy and something else go wrong and lose it. I am trying to stay positive and felt pretty sick today and I know that is a good sign so I am trying to stay positive but I also don't feel like posting much.

I have an appointment next Friday with my doctor so I am looking forward to that. I think Branden has off and will get to go with me. I also have the 12 week NT ultrasound on the 20th. My old neighbor is doing it and I had asked if it was possible to tell the gender that early and she said it just depends on the position. I don't care what we have but I almost just want to see if my feelings are right. I think it is so strange that I feel like this baby is a boy and have had no real feelings that I am having a girl.  I always wanted a daughter so badly first. I would joke about not wanting a boy but after having the miscarriage and trying for over a year I can not even imagine being disappointed by either gender. I get so annoyed now when I see people saying they don't want a certain gender. I think I just feel like if you lost your baby tomorrow would you not be as upset if it was the other gender? Probably not. You would be just as upset and just as distraught over losing that baby.

Not to much else is going on. Tomorrow I am having lunch with one of my best friends which will be nice since I haven't seen her much lately. I think Branden and I are also going to go to a movie and then NYE is the next night! We aren't doing anything major this year so we are probably just going to The Cheesecake Factory with my sister, brother and sister-in-law and maybe their kids then not sure what else. My sister also rented Easy A so we are probably going to watch that again. Woot! Woot!
Alright BED TIME!

Happy 8 weeks and 1 day to my precious baby.
Today has been quite a day. I had to take my dog Tyson to the vet to have his teeth cleaned and I was so nervous about it because they put him under and he breaths funny. He did fine though!
Then I am at home around 1PM watching 16 and pregnant. Crying the whole time as this poor girl tries to decide on whether to give her baby up for adoption. I decided to take a break and take the dogs out and go to the bathroom and wipe and it's bright red! I freaked, started crying hysterically thinking this is the end. I call my doctors office, no doctors in but the nurse says it could be old blood leaving your body from all the hormones since there is no cramping or clots. I didn't believe her so I call my Dad to take me to the ER since Branden was at work and about 45 minutes away. He takes me and poor guy, he looked so worried but tried to keep a strong face. My Mom and sister also came because my family is nuts and that seems to be what we do when we find out someone is going to the hospital. I get checked in and they do blood as I am crying hysterically still. Bran gets there and thank God. What a man! I love him even more for just being there. We finally get to go to the ultrasound room and see our beautiful baby. He had a heartbeat! He measured 8 weeks 1 day. I am convinced by the way that this baby is a boy. There was an article about placenta/ yolk placement and if its on the right side there is a 97% chance the baby is a boy and left a girl. This baby was on the right and everything seems to point to boy. I can not explain how insane it was to see this baby's heartbeat after freaking out thinking he was gone. I was praying God please let this baby have a strong heartbeat and it was there. Measuring perfectly. My HCG numbers were good as well. Please little baby stay strong and hold on, we love you so much and Daddy was so happy to see you today for the first time.

I have been a bit MIA lately. My In Law's came to visit for a few days and then we were busy getting the house back in order and then I worked Monday which I usually don't and Tuesday and Wednesday so I have been worn out from the long nannying days. I am feeling a bit sick right now and anxious. My baby

Tyson is having his teeth cleaned at the vets tomorrow and I am nervous. He is 7 and he breaths weird. I am hoping him going under will be okay. They are also X-raying his face because he has a bump that hasn't gone away and we want to rule out cancer since he one time sneezed blood. He is my precious sweet little guy so say a prayer for him that all goes well tomorrow.

As for the holidays, my parents are having a Christmas Eve party and I may announce to our family that I am pregnant. I bought a shirt that says Tis the Season to be Pregnant but I am not 100% sure yet. That day though Bran and I will be doing our own Christmas since he has to work on Christmas day. I am so bummed. I am not that excited for the actual day but Chirstmas Eve should be fun. Hope everyone has a great holiday!

Today started out with me feeling very icky. It's very cold here for Florida weather and of course it's making my morning sickness worse. I have yet to throw up but that feeling of right before you are going to puke is no fun. I was laying around when the nurse called from my doctors office. She asked if I wanted to come in today instead of Monday and I jumped at the chance. I went in and got an ultrasound and first my doctor tried over the belly and he actually saw our baby! He even saw the heartbeat. Then he said let's do the vaginal one to measure and really see the heartbeat. He did it and WOW! That little one had a heartbeat and looked amazing. My doctor was very excited and said this looks great. You are 5 weeks 5 days and I am surprised we got the heartbeat but it looks really good. He said this looks like a viable pregnancy!!! I am so happy. The only way it could have been better is if Branden was there. He had to take a final so he couldn't come but he is coming next time!!

Ok so I don't get sick really in the morning but it seems to be hitting me at night. I am really scared though that I am going to get sick during the day while baby sitting and the grandma will figure out I am pregnant.
One of the other Mom's figured it out today but I didn't care because she knew about the first pregnancy and she was really excited. I am nervous about telling the family I work for during the day but not really sure why. Maybe because I am not as close with them yet? I adore the family and I know they will be happy for me but I just feel weird on how to tell them also.

After the ultrasound on Monday it will be easier to tell people because I will see the heartbeat! I can not wait. I also got my blood work back today and my numbers were well over the 5,000's and they looked high and good. I can't remember the exact number though which annoys me that I didn't pay enough attention. I was to busy asking about what I can do about feeling sick. By the way, B6 is supposed to help. Not sure if it does or not but I did take it and I feel sick but I am wondering if I have to take it for a few days for it to work. Who knows. I am hoping on Monday when I go they will perscribe me Zofran and it works. I probably won't take it a lot though, just on Wednesdays when I am baby sitting and the 2year old and the grandma are there with me and the 10 month old.

I just took my last final for this semester! Next semester is my last one. I am so happy to be almost done.

Yesterday I started feeling a bit queasy when I ate lunch and haven't felt as hungry and today its a bit worse. I haven't thrown up but I am wondering if this is the beginning on Morning Sickness. We will see!

5 weeks, just ate lunch lol

Ok, so I know I am only just over a month pregnant but let's face it I have been waiting for this for 2 years so of course I am going to go a little crazy over baby things.

Today my Mom, sister and I had to do some errands for Christmas. We went to the dollar store to find snowflake decor for my Dad, then we went to Target where my Mom proceeded to the baby section to buy something neutral for the baby. From Grandma, of course. She saw this really cute monkey sleep outfit and I had to admit it is a little more boyish but so cute that I didn't even care. If we have a girl it's not like anyone is going to care what she wears to sleep.
Then we ran some more errands and then went to Baby's R Us! I was in Heaven. I showed my Mom the monitor I want because it's a motion sensor one and it is supposed to help prevent SIDS. The baby I watch has it and I love it. Then my Mom picked out some more baby items and to say they were cute is an understatement. She got two more sleep outfits, booties, a whale towel I wanted and I think that might be it I can't remember. I bought an expecting ornament since Branden and I buy a special ornament each year and a alligator that is a plush one. It is so soft. I love it! If we have a boy his bedding will be the Nantucket one from Target and it has alligators on it. Either way its a cute stuffed animal. I am going to try not to buy anything else for awhile haha, yeah right!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! We spent it with my parents and had the dogs wear their shirts and told my parents we were having a baby! They were very excited and we had a great day. I am tired though because I was up in the middle of the night feeling sick but finally felt better and fell asleep but then my alarm went off early uhg!

I also had a dream last night that we had a baby boy! He was so cute and precious and he was sitting on a table giggling and wearing just a diaper and waving his hands up and down. I mean cute doesn't even describe this baby. I used to want a girl so badly first but after the miscarriage and TTC for 14 months I don't even care if this baby is a boy or a girl just as long as he or she is healthy. I can not wait to find out though. I want to be able to call the baby by name. Yes, we already have names picked out! No, I am not sharing till we know.

I am going to do a 4 week post now since I am 4 weeks today!

Tonight my sister and I went to the craft store to get t-shirts so we could make them for the dogs to wear over to my parents house on Thanksgiving. We put a saying on each one. Tyson's, who was my first dog, says Not Another One since he has already gotten two doggy brothers. Tanner's says "And this one drools?" Since none of our dogs actually drool but babies do. And finally Simon, our newest dog, his says I'm going to be a Big Brother! Who knows. Then we also bought each of my parents a big. My Mom's says "Who needs Santa when I have Grandma." and my Dad's says "I love Grandpa." They didn't have a great selection for Grandpa items so his is less cute lol and more boyish with it being blue and has monkey's on it but when it comes to bibs I don't care.
I can't wait to tell them.
I also have my blood work next Monday and Thursday then my ultrasound on December 9th!! I can't wait for that ultrasound. I can finally put my mind at ease. I just wish I was going sooner but I want to go when they will see a heartbeat so it's pointless to go sooner. Let's just hope these next two weeks go by super fast!

First Comes Love, Then Comes Marriage

Then Comes the Baby in the Baby Carriage! 11/20/10

Blurry but this is him opening it.

Yay!